Tomorrow I'm going to Brooklyn to hang with Steve Baby, should be fun. After I see Steve Baby, Christina and I are going to a club in Manhattan where her friend is the photographer. Then I'm crashing in Brooklyn for the night.

I was the crabbiest person last night, I hate when I take my feelings out of people who don't deserve it. But then again, I don't really understand how you can NOT 'take it out on others around you'. If something ridiculous is going on in your life and it's mind fucking you and driving you up a wall, how are you supposed to act like it's not? Just because you're with someone that has nothing to do with it, you're supposed to just pretend to be in an okay mood, and what... talk about something else? Maybe I'm a crummy person, but if something bad is on my mind, I show it. I'm not very good at pretending to not be annoyed with something. It's selfish and shitty of me, but when I'm in a mood, you're best bet is to just NOT be around me if you can't deal with a pissed off person. And if you can take someone being a bitch, then please just give me a hug and just don't say anything. Or fart, that usually makes me laugh regardless...

Regardless of how impossible I think it is to not be a douchebag to those in your presence when you're in the midst of a shitty event, I do feel awful when I'm a bitch to people. And I appreciate those that have the courage to flat out say I'm being a bitch and to cool it. Jason straight up said "you're being a bitch and i don't deserve it" and went home. As annoyed as it made me, I applaud him.

Doctors next Friday afternoon to give me the okay to leave town. And if all goes well, I'll be on the road at 4pm. I sure hope everything is okay.