Things have been great since I've been back up in Oswego. Jason's visit last weekend was nice. Show was good. Hung with my stud muffin Robert Manley Friday, got to ride with Aaron and Ted Friday night at lab, hung with Mayo on Tuesday, nice relaxing weekend, saw Gran Torino which was hysterical and got into a super intense conversation last night which had me up til this morning and really made me think...
Some topics that I felt very passionate about less than a year ago, I'm very unsure of now. And the one thing that's been circulating often in my brain has been a woman's rights to do what she wishes with her body. If a girl gets pregnant, what gives her the right to abort a child if the contributing man to that what would be child is completely against it? Or vice verse. For my ENTIRE life I've been pro-choice, and I still very much so am, but I'm just not so sure anymore how much power I feel I have. What rights do the to be fathers have? Don't they have a say? It's been boggling my mind that a man can be forced into paying child support for a child he was not for having. A man can be forced into a decision regardless of whether he supports it or not whereas a woman cannot. Nobody can FORCE a woman to have a child nor can someone FORCE a woman to abort a child. So, what is to say a man can be FORCED into either of these? It's strange that I would argue this point of view since I am clearly not a man... but it's been blowing my mind. It is such a tough topic to be so cut and dry on, which obviously is why it is such a highly debated topic.
A feminist will say that a man should be obligated to pay child support regardless of whether he is for having this child because he needs to 'be a man' and accept responsibility for his actions. While, I do believe a man needs to accept responsibility for his actions... women should be held to the same standards, no? If both men and women should be help responsible for their actions, then what makes it right for a woman to abort a child? Excluding the fraction of pregnancies that result in the failure of a form of birth control, if a pregnancy results in a complete neglect to protect oneself from this occurrence, then why is it so widely accepted to NOT accept responsibility and just remove this potential life? And the fact that it is so common should not make something more acceptable and I strongly feel that is a factor in its widespread popularity.
Again, I must remind anyone reading this, and myself, that I am indeed pro-choice.
Another aspect that gets under my skin is that my mother could have easily aborted me and then I would not have the privileged of experiencing life. Imagine if everyone made the decision to abort their child... none of us would be here. You have a growing being inside of you. I'm aware that it is not murder to have an abortion, but part of me is so uncomfortable with the whole idea. What is inside of you, whether you want to call it a child or not, will eventually grow into a tiny person. A tiny fucking PERSON. And by having an abortion you are denying that TINY PERSON life. Bah, it kills me.
I am so torn on how I truly feel. Sometimes, I agree with abortion. Sometimes, I don't. I just typed out that I no longer can agree with abortions for selfish reasons. If you were careless and slept with someone unprotected, accept responsibility for your moronic choice. But, at the same time, it is almost just as self sh to have a child if you are not ready to be a parent and will not opt for adoption. Growing up in a broken home is not fair to anyone either. And I can't honestly say that I've NEVER been guilty of having unprotected sex. I'm not too sure I know a single person that has not had sex at least once unprotected. And I'd always expect to have the right to decide the outcome of my body god forbid anything were to happen to me. But, I am just so conflicted.
Man. It's so late, almost 3am, and I have a doctors appointment at 8am.
I believe that the option of abortion is absolutely necessary. I just wish that there weren't so many careless pregnancies that end with abortion.
God, I sound like a right wing jesus lover in this post. That is so far from what I am. I'm going to look at this tomorrow and rip it apart with my left wing, liberal views. I only wrote specifically about these reasons because they are the reasons contributing to my conflict on how pro-choice I am.
I probably shouldn't post this because I didn't fully argue my case and I got too tired halfway through to finish the argument going on inside of me about this... but whatever. Deal with it.
Some topics that I felt very passionate about less than a year ago, I'm very unsure of now. And the one thing that's been circulating often in my brain has been a woman's rights to do what she wishes with her body. If a girl gets pregnant, what gives her the right to abort a child if the contributing man to that what would be child is completely against it? Or vice verse. For my ENTIRE life I've been pro-choice, and I still very much so am, but I'm just not so sure anymore how much power I feel I have. What rights do the to be fathers have? Don't they have a say? It's been boggling my mind that a man can be forced into paying child support for a child he was not for having. A man can be forced into a decision regardless of whether he supports it or not whereas a woman cannot. Nobody can FORCE a woman to have a child nor can someone FORCE a woman to abort a child. So, what is to say a man can be FORCED into either of these? It's strange that I would argue this point of view since I am clearly not a man... but it's been blowing my mind. It is such a tough topic to be so cut and dry on, which obviously is why it is such a highly debated topic.
A feminist will say that a man should be obligated to pay child support regardless of whether he is for having this child because he needs to 'be a man' and accept responsibility for his actions. While, I do believe a man needs to accept responsibility for his actions... women should be held to the same standards, no? If both men and women should be help responsible for their actions, then what makes it right for a woman to abort a child? Excluding the fraction of pregnancies that result in the failure of a form of birth control, if a pregnancy results in a complete neglect to protect oneself from this occurrence, then why is it so widely accepted to NOT accept responsibility and just remove this potential life? And the fact that it is so common should not make something more acceptable and I strongly feel that is a factor in its widespread popularity.
Again, I must remind anyone reading this, and myself, that I am indeed pro-choice.
Another aspect that gets under my skin is that my mother could have easily aborted me and then I would not have the privileged of experiencing life. Imagine if everyone made the decision to abort their child... none of us would be here. You have a growing being inside of you. I'm aware that it is not murder to have an abortion, but part of me is so uncomfortable with the whole idea. What is inside of you, whether you want to call it a child or not, will eventually grow into a tiny person. A tiny fucking PERSON. And by having an abortion you are denying that TINY PERSON life. Bah, it kills me.
I am so torn on how I truly feel. Sometimes, I agree with abortion. Sometimes, I don't. I just typed out that I no longer can agree with abortions for selfish reasons. If you were careless and slept with someone unprotected, accept responsibility for your moronic choice. But, at the same time, it is almost just as self sh to have a child if you are not ready to be a parent and will not opt for adoption. Growing up in a broken home is not fair to anyone either. And I can't honestly say that I've NEVER been guilty of having unprotected sex. I'm not too sure I know a single person that has not had sex at least once unprotected. And I'd always expect to have the right to decide the outcome of my body god forbid anything were to happen to me. But, I am just so conflicted.
Man. It's so late, almost 3am, and I have a doctors appointment at 8am.
I believe that the option of abortion is absolutely necessary. I just wish that there weren't so many careless pregnancies that end with abortion.
God, I sound like a right wing jesus lover in this post. That is so far from what I am. I'm going to look at this tomorrow and rip it apart with my left wing, liberal views. I only wrote specifically about these reasons because they are the reasons contributing to my conflict on how pro-choice I am.
I probably shouldn't post this because I didn't fully argue my case and I got too tired halfway through to finish the argument going on inside of me about this... but whatever. Deal with it.
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